Healthy Mind, Healthy Body: Part 2

When life gets you down, what do you do? As someone with bipolar disorder, I struggle with extremely low periods every once in a while (I also have extremely high periods, but that's another story). These can last anywhere from a week to years. It disrupts my life, my ability to do things I need to do, and my relationships. It's really hard to get out of these periods, too, even though I'm screaming at myself to do so.

That's been my life since March, and it's been awful. Crying every day, feeling worthless, not accomplishing anything... and not even succeeding with fitness. How do you motivate yourself to go to the gym and work out when you're not seeing any results because your (ineffective) medication makes you gain weight anyway? Anti-depressants have a strong correlation to weight gain; I got on my meds and immediately gained 15 pounds. It's been a struggle just to lose that 15 again, and haven't seen anything besides that despite doing everything right. So, yeah, working out and not seeing results wasn't exactly helping.

So here's where I'm at: I switched medications and have dropped another 6 pounds in the last two weeks without changing anything else. I'm not crying every day anymore and some would even say I'm not depressed at all (but I've had a huge distraction in the form of Splatoon 2). The new medications seem to be working, although I'm still not feeling up to going to the gym more. At least I'm not cancelling my personal training for stupid reasons. I'll get there.

In other fitness news, the Get Fit challenge at my gym starts tomorrow! It came with some unexpected expenses so I'm taking donations to help me cover them, but once I've got my finances squared away I'll be excited to start the challenge. I hope it's exactly what I need to get back to the gym five times a week.

(I previously posted Healthy Mind, Healthy Body part 1 over here. It's an older post but still highlights a lot of my struggles.)